#love and other train wrecks

[razreads]

It doesn’t matter if you’re happier in the end. It doesn’t matter if it was the right thing for you. Because actions hurt people.

Leah Konen, Love and Other Train Wrecks

[flowerflamestars]

Another alternative Effloresce pov. Azriel, as the slow moving shitshow train wreck his life is is quickly becoming a fast moving shit show train wreck.

I cannot tell you how much I love this one!

So, I would say across all my fics Azriel is a character who is the most consistent? Especially since almost all of them were written before acosf TERRIBLY let us in his actually creepy little headspace, and I've additionally chosen to keep my made up shadowman as he is.

Effloresce Az is basically Starlight Az but SADDER. He's Daylight Az without a kiddo and husband, Shoreless Sea Az without the absolutely beneficial retirement, and man is he TIRED.

You're Azriel, and your job sucks. Your inborn skillset leaves you zero other options, and you know this. It's better to be the left hand of power than in a cell for life, but you know what? Sometimes you can only do so goddamn much.

You're Azriel and that's kind of all you've got. You're one of a kind, literally. Alone forever in that. But you love Cassian. You play the little games with Mor for harmony. You respect- alien, ancient, different, probably what you'll feel like in a thousand goddamn years if you live that long- Amren.

You see the good in Rhysand, limited as it is to personal things, but you also see the vast potential for failure.

You see him listening to this CHILD OF A GIRL- who seems nice, yeah. You're worried about her, frankly. The Courts of Prythian revived her and will not just let that go- but that doesn't mean you think she has, shall we say, good ideas.

You watch Cassian spend days arguing against this.

You rock up over the wall and realize these two mortal, innocent women have probably been taken captive by Spring. Your orders are a mistake, you have a war to fight that has nothing to do with these people, but you're here, and you might as well do some good.

You move to neutralize the threat.

Lucien Vanserra does not act like a vassal of Spring. No, not even at Autumn prince. You can drown fire in the dark, but you can't swallow the sun or an ocean of flame without end.

That doesn't matter either, because this determined little slip of blond sunshine just fucking stabbed you. And for the first time in maybe decades, you just want to laugh. You've fucked up, clearly, but you're okay. (You can live through so much worse than letting a human woman stab you to feel safe.)

You hear Cassian coming, and you know.

It doesn't matter what Feyre is saying. Has said. You're Azriel and you can't not know or not hear- she's wrong or she lied. You have a High Lord sweating blood to protect a stunningly, dangerously charming woman and you have her sister, who feels less like delight and more like a dream.

You're a shadowsinger, whose providence is secrets and these two woman are shrouded.

You're fucked, essentially.

You know they're not really human.

You know they're hiding, and Feyre is going to break that right open if Rhysand has his way, no matter how many times you point out that the Queens want nothing to do with Prythian's fae.

You're Azriel, and you've always been smart enough to stay quiet when you have no orders forcing you to do otherwise. You're polite. You're frankly, horrified. You have no idea what to do with the Archeron sisters acting like you're nothing to be afraid of.

You know, before Cassian knows, that every wind that has ever carried him had lead him right here.

(You remember what that felt like. The fear, the euphoria. You were young and stupid enough to consider it simple rightness, your extra senses on your side, pulling you toward the correct choice in fealty. You didn't know what it was until too late. You didn't know and you never even got to know or got to mourn. You didn't have the right to mourn a girl dead too soon, who would have never been anything but your queen had she grown old enough to wear a crown.)

(Dead before the start, just like you.)

You decide, immediately, you cannot let what happened to you happen to Cassian. Nesta Archeron might be a compelling power, might be a fighter with ash in her hair and a cunning mind, but Shahar was a High Lady born. Not even that could save her.

You understand the instant way you like Elain is magic, whether she knows it or not. (She does not). Real affection follows quickly, you are, despite all magic to the contrary, as Illyrian as Cassian. You cannot not know. You like Nesta too- if only for her ferocity. Her bleeding, present fury.

They treat you like a person.

Fearlessly.

Easily.

You watch as their sister breaks their hearts, cracks already laid. You watch Rhysand act more and more territorial, and of course you know why too. You watch Lucien Vanserra safeguard the lives and livelihoods of hundreds of humans and you understand this, here, is a Court too.

A better one.

You quietly, a secret, kill their father.

You bind yourself in blood to a favor, and use it to unshackle the Archeron bloodline and their vassals from the Queens.

You watch Nesta Archeron kneel in the snow, watch Elain Archeron pull a knife on a High Lord of Prythian over human lives, and think, with dread and barren exhaustion, you're making the right choice.

The hard choice.

(How many noncombatants died in Sangravah? In every city Amarantha occupied? How many servants in the Hewn City every year? How many Illyrian children in the starving north? How many deaths were Azriel's fault, because Rhysand didn't care?)

(The Archerons would rather die with their people than live. Were educating their maids. Sending their kitchen boys to university. Taking in the orphans of other estates, having never forgotten what it was to be forgotten, hungry and alone.)

You're Azriel, and you can't not know how badly this is going to hurt.

[brightchrysaor]

i'm not your highness

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply

Category: F/M

Fandom: Fire Emblem: Fuukasetsugetsu | Fire Emblem: Three Houses

Relationship: Dimitri Alexandre Blaiddyd/Edelgard von Hresvelg

Characters: Edelgard von Hresvelg, Claude von Riegan, Hubert von Vestra, Dimitri Alexandre Blaiddyd, Ferdinand von Aegir, Minor Characters

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Edelgard Never Left Faerghus, Blue Lions Edelgard von Hresvelg, Letters, Arranged Marriage, POV Edelgard von Hresvelg, Codependency, Edelgard and Dimitri make each other worse, they have mafia vibes, Claude is watching with popcorn, Politics, Hubert von Vestra Needs a Hug, no beta we die like Glenn, Public Display of Affection, but used as a weapon

I'm not your highness a damsel left helpless by fright I am a lioness fierce as I walk through the night

—The Crane Wives, Show Your Fangs

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At the end of her first week as a student in the Blue Lions house, Edelgard has a series of very disconcerting conversations.

[destinywillowleaf]

if you've ever wondered if a pachirisu could solo the platinum hard mode elite four and champion...

yes. yes it can.

[varibean]

tweek freaking out in senior year bc he’s trying to figure out what is the earliest he can ask craig out to prom and all of the gang look at him like he’s crazy bc he’s been dating craig practically his whole like, why would he be worried about prom of all things? and that line of questioning just gets tweek going on a rant 

“he could still say NO!!! What if he wants to go as a group instead or doesn’t want to go to prom or OH GOD what if someone else asks him out first, what if lots of people start asking him if i don’t do it as soon as it’s socially acceptable!?” 

and the gang are even more confused bc who in their right mind would ask craig to prom? aside from everyone knowing that he’s dating tweek, he’s like, average at best. no one is trying to steal him away but tweek is losing his mind insisting that craig is a catch that everyone will be fighting over during prom season

[sowoozoo-7]

been MIA bc i went to see these guys in Australiaaaaa aahhhh

[trekkele]

Oh? You like [popular ship]? Which one is always making "unecessary boundaries" and is "emotionally incompetent" and which one is always stomping over those boundaries in the name of "emotional competence"?

[atelierlili]

If you could wish your dream fic into existence - what would the tags for it be?

It’s literally my time travel gone wrong everlark fic that i won’t ever finish writing.

-time travel fix it- gone wrong - gone right?

-aggressively in love

- Unrequited requited love

-unhinged pining

- fluff

Thanks so much for the ask 🥺💕💕

[swordmaid]

very important to me that in all of the variations of where their own seperate stories end up, it’s oathbreaker shri’iia/spawn astarion the one that stays together - as in they stay together for shri’iia’s entire lifespan bc they’re like 🤞 locked in. the other three variations go up in flames. oathbreaker shri’iia/ascended astarion breaks up after he ascended bc what he did goes against her oath and she spends the rest of her life hunting him down trying to kill him that it becomes a little game between them, devotion shri’iia/spawn astarion she love bombs and gaslights him so bad bc she wants to forever devote herself to him. but he’s like actually I deserve better than this im gonna leave you and she’s like the png you’re not rockin with me??? im gonna kms. devotion shri’iia/ascended astarion most rancid couple alive they’re doing the world a favour by containing that toxicity within themselves bc I def think he’ll get tired of her ass after a few hundred years (that’s being generous) and he wants to replace her bc he can have anything and anyone he wants HES theeee vampire lord but she can’t have that btw not when she’s devoted to forever worshipping him like no baby she’s it ..! and she gone girls his ass and ruins his life so no one can have him and he’ll resent her and they’ll stew in that resentment and disgust and hate and love for eternity 🫶

[razreads]

I know what guilt’s like, and how what-ifs feel. They’re always there, waiting for you. Not easy to fight on your own.

Leah Konen, Love and Other Train Wrecks

[bookwyrminspiration]

E.L. James terrifies me. My mother thinks fifty shades is a beautiful love story (I might’ve already said that, but this is a cry for help). You are so brave for reading that godforsaken series. Please cleanse your mind soon

Did. Did your mother and I read the same series WHERE did she get that from. They meet, are immediately horny for each other (fair enough, if not my thing), and then spend a month and a half fighting, fucking, and fighting some more. And then they get married (yeah, month and a half. christian literally tells her they can get to know each other after they get married.) and guess what? they proceed to be married and fight. and fuck. and fight some more

Christian's way of "talking" things through when they have a problem is to say "I hate arguing with you" and to have sex. He says "let's not fight" and just wants them to move on without addressing it because he doesn't want to argue! I don't think they've once had a disagreement and talked it through like civil adults they're always yelling. And Christian's inner monologue is "i gotta seduce her. I gotta get her in bed. that way I'll know we're okay". and maybe this is just me but I feel like, perhaps, you should have at least one other measure of being okay

he's got this "need" to be in control and obeyed. and he is! so irrational about it! he literally canceled a meeting in DC and flew back from NYC to Seattle on his private jet once because Ana decided to go out for a drink with a friend instead of back to the apartment like she originally promised (there was a dangerous individual at large, but she had multiple security personnel with her at the time). he canceled his meetings and drove to her work to confront her in person because she wanted to keep her last name at work once. and he also literally bought the company where she worked when she got hired. i'm not even scratching the SURFACE of how annoyingly overbearing and invasive he is. he didn't speak to her for like a whole day when she said she wouldn't promise to obey him in their wedding vows

Ana promises never to leave Christian no matter what on multiple occasions and I'm. I think you should have a stipulation bbg. I think there should be a point at which you do walk out. Eternal devotion no matter what is not romantic or healthy, he can do things that are too much. You walked out on him once please keep that mindset

Oh my god. I was about to look up EL James' stance on queerness (because there's some questionable things in the books) and apparently in 2019 she teased that she might write a queer bdsm novel...I am so afraid.

Anyway. your mother needs to raise her standards, nonsie. and thank you, I fully intend to reset my brain as best as I can as soon as possible--fortunately, reading other books through this has lessened the blow a little :)

[kyriolex]

It it just me or is almost every plot thread connected to Kawaki in form?

Boruto and Naruto go without saying

Sumire gets to appears in almost every chapter ever since she became Kawaki's nurse

Code and Eida also go without saying

I feel this has also had a very negative effect on certain characters like Sarada and Mitsuki who have almost no real connection to Kawaki

Sarada? Barely any connection to Kawaki herself outside of Teammates. Her Idolization of Naruto also got hijacked by Kawaki. She also has to share her role in defeating Eida with Sumire (both of whom I already mentioned are connected to Kawaki) 

Mitsuki? Barley any connection to Kawaki himself outside of Teammates. His Sun and Moon theme and SasuNaru-esque dynamic also got hijacked by Kawaki

I feel like the only plot threads we currently have that aren't connected to Kawaki in some form is Amado's Daughter (at least not directly anyways) and Himawari's Hidden Intensity (but it's still too soon to say anything about that)

I mean, Amado gave Kawaki karma again specifically so he could do something to bring Delta's memories back. So I'd say he's pretty related to that plot point. Himawari's, not so much.

But I get your overall point. It's a shame Sarada and Mitsuki got pushed to the side. They didn't have to be. Sarada and Kawaki could have been interesting foils for how they idolize Naruto. And Mitsuki, as a clone, could have had some really interesting conversations with Eida and Daemon about being semi-human.

But Boruto is a monthly manga, and the creators only have so much space in each issue. They've apparently chosen to use that space drawing Eida in various fanservice poses rather than offering more character development for Boruto's teammates.

[glasseswearingrabbitdetective]

Me trying to read a certain bishoujo manga so bad it just makes no sense… I want to bang my head against a wall 🥲 why did I even do that?? I couldn’t put it down.. I wanted to hope there was SOME goodness in it but even the translators gave up on it 😂😂😂

[bearenjoyers]

okay okay okay OKAY. okay. i’ve said this 100000000 times before but the thing that really gets me about box cutter and giancarlo’s “compassion” comment is the fact that in gus’s mind, he probably wanted to comfort victor. he probably wanted to calm him down and show some vulnerability so victor Knew he didn’t want any of this. and that he still cared about him. and he did try his best to show that through the way he held him but in the end i don’t think it was enough. and it probably would’ve never been enough. cause in victor’s eyes he just experienced the worst betrayal of his fucking life. he was standing there side by side with gus, assuming gus was on his side. and then suddenly here he is bleeding all over himself and being held up in front of those three. just to send a message. yknow. it’s fucked.

[jediexile]

I’ve been playing through poe 1 and 2 and I feel personally attacked by Aloth

[clvric]

cellvari has two moods

one is

the other is